I have been thinking of this piece all day..and finally executed it tonight. It is by far my most dynamic and edgiest piece for my abstract experimentation series. I love just working with the purity of the paint, it releases something in me. My inspiration does come from a darker source. My own depression and suicidal thoughts back in my teen years..however, as much as I was emotionally suffering then I didn't take the knife to my wrists..I was squeemish about pain and blood and didn't want to end up in a hospital strapped down to a bed you know..I've read enough stories..still didn't have a lot of help back then to deal with my anger and rage..and now..I'm dealing with a lot of anger at being cooped up and having to deal with a very annoying seven year old..yes I'm talking about my daughter..who has no concept of boundaries and is really pushing me to the edge..I have other kids and I don't have this issue. I need a place to express my stress, anger..and really it's more than just her, it's EVERYTHING. I just see a lot of beauty in this piece as well as darkness. It does remind me of The Cure's Mixed Up album cover..I think the colors are just what I like...it's still an original piece. One I want to do is inspired by the Corona Virus..that's going to be something!
